NAMI Palm Beach Keynote - Support, Education, Acceptance

Keynote Speech for Annual Luncheon NAMI Palm Beach County, FL - a wonderful affiliate doing so much. This event raised thousands of dollars. Congrats!

The full version of this keynote is available on YouTube. Here, however, are just a few highlights:

Schizophrenia and the Family: In a Nutshell?

It occurs to me that some new readers of this blog may not really know the backstory that brought us here.

I've just returned from Warsaw, where I was honored to have the chance to speak to a global audience about our family experience with schizophrenia and recovery in my son Ben - and to have shared the stage (well, one at a time...) with the wonderful Pete Earley, author of Crazy: A Father's Search Through America's Mental Health Madness.

Pete told his story, and I told mine. The challenge was that, while I usually speak for at least a half hour, I had 17 minutes to sum up the last 15 years of chaos, discovery, and hope.  Not easy! But it did encourage participants to pick up the book for the whole story.So, for newbies to this site, here is a "nutshell" version of our path so far. I wrote this to send to NAMI, for possible media interest.

So - the "movie trailer" version of where we've been:

Fortunately, my son Ben (diagnosed with schizophrenia)  is currently doing well - but it has been a long road, and we almost lost him several times - so far. Every time that services are cut, or his needs misinterpreted, we run that risk again. Like many families, we have taken on much of his care ourselves - to make sure things continue to go as smoothly as possible.

 Our story? In a nutshell: 

• Bright, promising childhood - Ben was (is) bright, personable, loving

• Mid-teens: changes begin, become more frightening with the years - isolation, high school dropout, paranoia, a period of homelessness in Idaho

• Finally: diagnosis at age 20 - and I had discovered NAMI, which enabled me to (at last) be an educated partner in Ben's treatment and recovery...when "allowed" to by the system

• A long, dangerous wait for Ben to be "ill enough" to get admitted to a hospital - as if wandering through streets, near-incarceration, and strange visions were not enough

• Five hospitalizations in one year - 2003 -as we awaited the right meds, and then "permission" to be involved in his recovery

• At last - we "declared him homeless" so he could receive some services. Eight years in a group home - recovery progressed, but two relapses as staff ignored family information about Ben's med compliance

• Then, by 2011, improvement included part-time college success, a part-time job...and then a resulting cut in services as Ben was "doing so well".  Sent to his own apartment with extremely reduced support services. Result? Relapse, including police at his door, near loss of his job (thankfully they saw past the stigma), and 7 more weeks of hospitalization as he refused treatment - and was allowed to.

• Partnership finally resulted in stabilization - and Ben now lives with us. He is back to part-time work and college success, and is now enjoying a social life. But without the medication, he relapses within 2 days. We supervise carefully, twice a day.

Message? Recovery IS possible - with four cornerstones of:

• Medical Treatment

• Purpose

• Structure

• Community/Love

The cost of cutting services, and of cutting out the family support system, is: disaster. Families are helpful - IF they receive education and support. NAMI rocks - especially

Family-to-Family

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NAMI: How Strong Can an Affiliate Be?

The answer: Very Strong.

NAMI can make a tremendous difference, on levels from personal to political, and ranging from local to national.  I have felt it as a Family-to-Family participant, teacher and trainer; I have, I hope, nurtured it as a NAMI National Convention Presenter, and as a writer.

And, as a speaker and broadcaster, I've had the honor and privilege to see NAMI in action, in so many ways.  As a family member, I know that NAMI helped me to:

• learn about and accept my son's illness

• know that I was not alone, and

• find ways to turn our grief into advocacy and action.

Nowadays, NAMI serves and can represent those who are living with mental illness as well. Some call those affected by mental illness "consumers", others say "clients", or "patients", or "individuals"...and the debate on the right term may go on.  However, the need for respect, individual treatment, understanding and hope remains the much more important issue than finding the right word.

Keynote on Mental Illness: From Chaos to Hope

Last week, I got to know NAMI Summit County, Ohio, when I served as the keynote speaker for their 27th Annual Anniversary Celebration Dinner/Auction, themed "From Chaos to Hope." So close to the subtitle of Ben Behind his Voices...it had to be fate.

When I get the chance to speak to groups of those who care about mental illness issues as much as I do, I always feel that I learn more than I teach; once again, in Summit County, this proved to be the case.

The audience was filled not only with those affected by mental illness in themselves or a loved one, but also with Crisis Intervention Team (CIT) trainer officers, judges, lawyers, healthcare and social work professionals , politicians, and other friends. I learned about the courage, resilience, and actions of so many, by listening to the recipients of the evening's Awards: Journey of Hope, Community Recognition, Lifetime Achievement, Heroes Make a Difference.

I met people who had lost a loved one to mental illness and turned their grief into advocacy; I met those living with mental illness who now mentor others in the same situation; I met the leaders of this affiliate, including of course Mel and Helen Reedy, who have spearheaded so many wonderful programs that show what NAMI can do when there is a vision, and it's properly supported.

NAMI Educational and Support Programs, and Beyond

NAMI Summit County, in addition to providing the Educational and Advocacy services we often associate with a NAMI Affiliate (support groups, speaker series, Family-to-Family, Basics,  and other educational programs), offers assistance to those who are striving to cope with a brain disorder. These programs include:

Housewarming

Housewarming provides new, basic household items to assist persons who can now live independently. Since the program’s inception, over 1,000 requests were filled (207 in 2011, alone), aiding in the transition to leading and independent life.

Needy Soles

Needy Soles footwear provides shoes, socks and other footwear to those who cannot afford to buy their own. 664 pairs of shoes were provided in 2011 via vouchers provided through our local Community Support Services organization.

Hair Care Program

Limited income can mean sacrificing basic personal care. A trip to the barber shop or salon promotes self-confidence while providing a basic need. Clients may obtain a voucher redeemable at the Akron Barber College. 608 haircuts were provided in 2011.

Creative Kids

A scholarship program offering the opportunity for kids in Summit County with Mental Health issues to participate in extracurricular activities such as art, drama, martial arts, music and more. 

Recovery in mental illness is a community process, and I am grateful to NAMI Summit County for showing me yet another example of what can be done when someone has a vision, and many work together to make it come true. That, indeed, is the path from Chaos to Hope. No one does it alone.

Thank you!

Lost chapter: NAMI Family-to-Family, Experiment

Between the first draft of Ben Behind His Voices and the final one that went to publication, a few chapters (well, about 100 pages) were on the literary equivalent of  film's "cutting room floor."    

Here is one of the "lost" segments, from a NAMI Family-to-Family class I was teaching at the time.

May of 2004

I’m teaching my fourth Family-to-Family series, and this group decides to try something different. They vote to invite the “ill relatives” we’ve been talking about for nine weeks to attend the class on Recovery and Rehabilitation, where a guest consumer speaks.  They want their relatives to hear the stories. This is unusual, but this class wants to do it; so tonight we are joined by about five of the people we’ve only heard about since February. Ben is one of them. It feels odd, their presence in the room – one of the most effective things about F2F is that, for once, the family members get to be open about themselves, honest about their own sorrows, frustrations, and hopes.  This is the one place where they don’t have to be conscious of how their words will sound to the person whose illness has caused all those emotions.

I, too, feel self-conscious with Ben in the room. Does he disagree with what I’m saying?  Will he rebel against the idea that I hope for a “recovery” from an illness he doesn’t yet accept?Will this help him, or set him back?

I watch our guests during the class. Most are young adults, but not all.  They listen to our speakers, ask some questions.  They offer some insights, and also some resistance. We are, in reality, not expecting to “convince” them, but we’re still hoping something may sink in sooner or later.  I know I am. You never know.

The best part of the evening comes, unexpectedly, during the break. While all the family members are inside the room, talking with the guest speakers around the snack table, our relatives have taken their snacks into the hall and are talking to each other.  They’re in a circle, and they are talking.  I don’t know what they say to each other, but I do know that my heart lifts at the sight.

They are not alone; they are not so different.  They need more of that comradeship. They need each other.  There are so few support groups for teens and young adults with mental illness, unless they’re in the hospital.  Perhaps, like all young adults, what they need most of all is a healthy peer group that can make them feel like a part of something, and can inspire them to take one more step in the right direction.

I plant seeds. I plant seeds of insight and I hope someday they will grow.

Schizophrenia, James Holmes, and Hindsight

I think the psychiatry career of  Dr. Lynne Fenton may be over.

Worse than that, she must be questioning whether she could have done anything to prevent the "Batman shootings" in Aurora that killed 12, and wounded many others.

James Holmes: Schizophrenia?

So it leaks out that shooter James Holmes has been in "treatment" for schizophrenia. Big Duh. It was only a matter of time before that was revealed, sadly.

The question, though, is this: what kind of "treatment" was he getting?

Holmes in court

According to this PBS Report, and interview with CAROL LEONNIG,  of The Washington Post

"(New information) shows that James Holmes, the lead and only suspect in this shooting rampage in Aurora, Colo., was seeing a psychotherapist or psychiatrist in his university where he was a graduate student. She was a very senior psychotherapy director, basically the medical director for the outpatient clinic for mental health treatment for students.

And she was seeing him for some time before this tragic event...Lynne Fenton is the doctor in the case. Her specialty and what she has been mostly researching is schizophrenia."

What has yet to be revealed is whether or not Holmes was taking medication for his schizophrenia, and whether he should have been committed to a hospital stay - whether he "wanted to" or not - if there were any signs of this possibility of violence.

Could Treatment Have Prevented the Tragedy?

This leads us to the issue of "Assisted Outpatient Treatment" well-covered by the Treatment Advocacy Center - so I will say no more about that in this post.

But there is also the issue of James Holmes' family life.

Grief in Aurora

There are those who will point to his parents as the "cause" of his actions - yes, still. But I know all too well how the best parents can feel powerless in the face of schizophrenia - especially in the absence of support and education.

The Grief of Countless Families

Check out this Open letter  "To the parents of James Holmes: Our son has schizophrenia; we know how hard it can be" . In it, the family expresses first-hand empathy for the confusion and chaos that schizophrenia can bring to a family.

and this was my response (among many other comments)

Dear Margaret - and family - Thank you for this empathetic, beautifully written open letter. There will be those who do not believe your point of view; perhaps, before my own son Ben developed schizophrenia, I might have been one of them.

But no longer.

Ben is 30, and we have been through the same confusion, shock, grief, and anger as you. Eight hospitalizations later, a few of them as relapse during the recovery period that began when Ben's meds began to restore his brain at last (not completely, of course, but enough to allow a slow thaw from his "frozen in time" state), we are grateful for every small step Ben takes to find a new normal for his life.

He has a job, goes to school and does well, and can - at last - take family trips with us with little fear that his behaviors will scare flight attendants.

It has been a long road, and we still monitor Ben's medications - because in two days without them he will wind up back in relapse. I wish he didn't need them - and perhaps, as he ages, this may change if he is carefully monitored - but right now he absolutely needs this treatment - medication, support, structure, community, purpose and love.

Perhaps if James Holmes had had treatment that works - involuntary, if necessary - this could have been prevented.

My heart goes out to you, and all affected by this senseless tragedy - including the Holmes family, and even James himself.

We are lucky, perhaps, to have Ben back in our lives in such a positive way - but I know that we were helped immeasurably by education (especially the Family-to-Family program at NAMI, and even the website communities like HealthyPlace that provide info and perspective) and by the stories of others - which is why we wrote our memoir, Ben Behind His Voices (which included some resources that saved our family) -Thank you for sharing your story and perspective. Perhaps it, too, will make a difference.

best,
Randye

Diagnosis at last: Grief and Relief

It's Mental Health Awareness Day, and HealthyPlace.com (host of my Mental Illness In the Family Blog, and lots of great info, encouraged me to do a video post for the "blog party" -

So here it is - one minute about the "moment of truth" when a diagnosis is finally shared. So many emotions.

Diagnosis, Schizophrenia: What Came Next?

Interview on Conn Jackson' show, Get Connected-- he on windy Manhattan (California) Beach, me in a nice warm studio in Manhattan (Big Apple). He asked some great questions, and allowed me to highlight the importance of therapeutic alliance, NAMI, early detection, reduction of stigma, support and education for families, and the importance of love and hope.

Thanks, Conn! Here's what he had to say about the interview on YouTube:

"Watch as Randye Kaye, author, tells us about her son's struggle with schizophrenia and how she helped him though it. Why is Randye's secret advice? Watch and find out!"

Mental Illness Recovery: Four Cornerstones

Ben's recent setback (and, fingers crossed, re-recovery) has cemented, in my mind, the "Four Cornerstones of Recovery"  in Mental Health.  Here I share them in in a short video for HealthyPlace.com's YouTube Channel.

Attention must be paid to the human being, while making sure the physical balance is maintained by supervising medications.

And for the family? This reminder: education helps. Here, a link to an article about Family-to-Family, and its documented effectiveness:

Support Program Can Help Caregivers Cope with Relative’s Mental Illness

Family Matters in Mental Illness and Recovery: Sharing

Since this is a new home for the blog I'd previously shared as "No Casseroles for Schizophrenia" on blogspot, Technorati has asked for my verification, so here it is: 295NHGGCAUTX

Meanwhile, thanks again to you: for following, sharing, and caring.  I hope to continue the dialogue for all of us - one in four families - affected by a major mental illness in one of our own: child, spouse, sibling or parent.

Other excellent forums exist as well, such as:

• healthyplace.com (where I also blog about Mental Illness in the Family)

• NAMI

• NAMI Family-to-Family (its effectiveness documented here in this Psychiatric Services article)

• NAMI groups on twitter, facebook, linkedin

• BringChange2Mind

and many more.

I'll try to keep you posted right here, and hope you'll do the same. As always, please feel free to follow, subscribe, comment, tweet- and tell others that we're here, and they are not alone.

If you are going to the NAMI National Conference, stop by and see me on Friday July 8  (Poster Presentation around noon) to say hi - and  for a free bookmark with book info and alsohelpful tips on family matters!  

No Casseroles for Schizophrenia: Where truth, support, and hope began: NAMI's Family-to-Family Course

Where truth, support, and hope began: NAMI's Family-to-Family Course

Now:

Ben made the Dean's List again! The letter from our local community college confirms his status and adds, "It is a a very worthwhile accomplishment to have become one of our best students." For the first time in over a decade, Ben actually cares about his grades;  there was a time he considered report cards a government plot to control him.  Ten years ago, he was a high school dropout, refusing to discuss his future plans, wandering through our town streets because he "didn't like the stupid rules at home."  Sometimes, then, he slept in the park.  My son, homeless and hopeless. His family: confused, devastated, always at our wits' end. 

Recovery takes time - and a lot more. So as we take this journey, I continue to teach (and train others to teach) a course for NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) called Family-to-Family.  This program - one of many offered by NAMI -saved our family by teaching me about mental illness and giving me the skills to deal with our new reality.

It was there that I learned the devastating truth that was necessary for the start of recovery: Ben truly did have a serious, and severe, mental illness. He was not "stubborn", or "going through a tough adolesence" - he was ill, and it wasn't his fault.  What did that mean for us? For him? By opening my eyes to the facts, this course opened my mind to solutions.

I am forever grateful to Dr. Joyce Burland, who created the 12-week class, and to everyone at NAMI who continue to help bring it to families like ours.  For free. Still, so many families don't even know what it is.  I urge you to find out.  Visit http://www.nami.org/ and find a wealth of free information, and a link to your local affiliate.  Click on "education" and there you are.

Find NAMI. It's something you can do for yourself - -RK

Excerpt from Ask about Ben Behind His Voices: One Family's Journey through Schizophrenia to a New Normal. December2003 (for info on publication, contact Claire Gerus, cgerus@comcast.net, literary representation)

In my years in NAMI, I’ve met some unforgettable people. While Family-to-Family is strictly for relatives of people with mental illnesses, the support groups also include the “consumers” (the current term for the ones who have been diagnosed with the illness) themselves, those who are struggling with their own recovery and ready to accept and talk about it. There are support groups strictly for consumers too, but it’s amazing to sit in a room where consumers and family members share their experiences with each other.

I’ve met people with such courage, such insight, such humor along with so many losses. I’m constantly awed by their stories, with the things they’ve lived through and the actions they’ve taken. With heart. With determination. With unending, powerful love.

I’ve met families with riches and families on welfare. Families of many colors, religions, levels of education. I’ve met adult children who grew up having to chase their mother down the street while she was in a manic phase; wives who had to play Santa Claus when their ill husbands were suddenly hospitalized on Christmas Eve; brothers who have lost the sibling who once taught them to ride a bike; sisters who get twenty confused phone calls a day from the big sister who used to help them with their homework and is now living on the street but refusing help.

I’ve met people who spent their life savings, mortgaged their homes, drained their retirement accounts in order to try a new treatment for their relative, or afford a few months in a private facility that either seemed promising or was simply the only alternative for post-hospital care. I’ve met parents whose children were missing for weeks, sometimes years; husbands who had to chase down their wives, around the world or across the country, after a disappearance sparked by mania. I’ve met people who have lost their loved ones to suicide.

Many of the families I meet have other children – healthy children, “normal” children. Luckier children. Mental illness, contrary to embarrassingly recent thought, is not the fault of the parent. It is a biological illness of the brain. That fact - that proven, medical fact - is a major hurdle for many family members to accept, for it means two contrasting things: one - that you didn’t do anything wrong. The illness is not your fault; two – that your relative really, truly is ill. You cannot “fix” this any more than you could “cause” it. You have so much less control than you wish you had.

With that said, though, families find that there is still much that they can do to help. There is empathy, understanding, advocacy. There are limits to set, programs to learn about, ideas to set in motion. That help may or may not be accepted by your loved one, but in the meantime, you can – you must -help yourself. There is grief – so much grief, so much loss. But there is also hope. You must live your life in between the storms.

Posted by Randye Kaye at 7:14 PM

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3 comments:

glory said...

Randye, your blog is wonderful. It'll be a lifeline to families challenged by schizophrenia. 

February 22, 2010 8:32 AM

Randye Kaye said...

thank you! that is the hope - 

February 22, 2010 3:01 PM

Logicmaven said...

Trying to understand it all. Things were looking up. My boy seemed to be doing much better -- much clearer, much more in focus. I started to wonder if it was all in MY head; after all, he hasn't had a formal diagnosis in almost ten years. It seemed like things were moving toward "normal." We spent some wonderful days together laughing, visiting the MoMA, remembering how alike we are and forgetting how different. I tried to gently push him toward mental health care -- he refused.Then he took off again. He's back in the city, "staying with friends." He calls me at night to tell me he's cold, to complain about not being able to get seen at the methadone clinic, to tell me he's hungry but he's not coming home.I don't know how I would survive without the support of friends.Thanks, Randye, for being there. Thanks for telling me about NAMI. Your words help so much.

March 2, 2010 11:19 AM

No Casseroles for Schizophrenia: Where truth, support, and hope began: NAMI's Family-to-Family Course

No Casseroles for Schizophrenia

If you are dealing with a mental illness in your family, this blog's for you.
My memoir, Ben Behind His Voices:One Family's Journey through Schizophrenia to a New Normal (formerly titled No Casseroles for Schizophrenia) is represented by Claire Gerus, cgerus@comcast.net. I am a NAMI Family-to-Family teacher and trainer in Connecticut, and professional speaker. My son, Ben, is 26 years old and was diagnosed with a severe case of paranoid schizophrenia about 5 years ago, after many years of confusion for our family during the gradual onset phase. The purpose of the book is to (a) tell the story of Ben's onset, crisis and recovery - especially recovery. All is not lost. Ben's life is worth living, he is worth loving; (b) get the subject - and stigma - out of the closet and into the open air where it can be discussed and, eventually, accepted; (c) provide hope, and some guidelines, for families; (d) educate providers as to what the family experiences when mental illness strikes - increase empathy and respect for the family as well as the person who has the illness. Oh, yes, and attract the right publisher to my literary agent, who believes in this book as much as I do.
Randye Kaye, rep. by Claire Gerus,
cgerus@comcast.net.