Thank You, John Oliver. And I apologize.

Wow. John Oliver just summed up the problems with our mental health system in 11 minutes and 54 seconds - with plenty of room for punchlines as well. I know - seems like something that isn't humorous. But this segment provides more respect for mental health issues than so many others I've seen. Well-placed humor can do that.

Watch it here:

His opening statement, like all the facts in this comedy-in-truth piece, is correct:

"It seems there is nothing like a mass shooting to suddenly spark political interest in mental health."

Guilty as charged. My last post was, yes, sparked by yet another act of violence that I suspected would eventually point back to an unaddressed mental health problem in the shooter (and lack of support for his family). After receiving 2 comments which were too extreme to approve, I almost deleted the post today. It seems to have sparked stigma and judgment instead of the empathy and constructive outrage I had hoped to inspire.  But I will let it remain in this thread, because while I myself may have jumped the gun on "judging" this shooter with expectations that attention should have been paid to his mental health way before a crisis, I also know that such judgment harms people like my son, who lives in fear that people will find out he has been diagnosed with schizophrenia. (for the record, his name and identifiable facts have been changed in the book and in my posts, with his permission to tell the story that way)

So let's be reminded of the following facts, in Rolling Stone's coverage of the segment:

"The aftermath of a mass shooting might actually be the worst time to talk about mental health," he argues. "Because, for the record, the vast majority of mentally ill people are non-violent. And the vast majority of gun violence is committed by non-mentally ill people." The host cites a February 2015 report by the American Journal of Public Health, which states that "fewer than 5 percent of the 120,000 gun-related killings … were perpetrated by people diagnosed with mental illness."

Yes. Let's not stigmatize those with mental health issues every time a crime like this occurs. But also, yes. Let's pay attention to our broken system - and fix it. Segments like John's, factual as well as (weird but wonderfully true) entertaining, point the way.

One Reader Speaks: Siblings, Schizophrenia, Support, Strength

Thanks for Reading and Sharing

Sometimes I open an e-mail from a reader that not only touches me, but teaches me...and these words, from the sibling of a man with schizophrenia, are in my heart forever. The author has granted permission to reprint his words here, for which I am so grateful - and hope you will feel the same way. I have changed the first names, and added some links, but otherwise this is, verbatim, what has re-inspired me today to continue to seek, and see, the strength courage and beauty in my son Ben. Thank you.

Dear Randye,
I am writing to thank you for your strong and beautiful book Ben Behind His Voices.  I did not want to read it.  I borrowed it from a friend almost two years ago and have been walking past it since then.  And I can’t exactly say it was light reading once I cracked it open.  Ben’s story is so much like my brother John’s.  But, with John now 54 and myself 58, it was high time to rewalk the path and get some new perspective.  I simply cannot thank you enough for your clear and detailed depiction of your family’s journey.

You do an especially fine job of explaining that tension between trying to help and trying to let be.  Also, you truly help readers understand that realization that for a person with schizophrenia, life dreams and plans will need to undergo revision.  As Robert Frost’s poem “The Ovenbird” reminds us, the question that needs continually to be asked, about all our lives, is, “What to make of a diminished thing?”  One could view the question as pessimistic, but to ask it honestly is actually an exercise in wisdom and courage.

Even though John cannot “compete” for standard definitions of success, he puts most of us to shame in a few specific areas.  One is courage.  A few Aprils ago I remarked to him on the phone what a gorgeous spring day it had been.  He said yes, that he had been out too.  He said that he had forced himself to let the bus home go on without him so he could sit out on a bench until the next bus came.  “It was hard,” he said, “but I did it.”  It was hard?  To sit on a bench for 30 minutes on a beautiful spring day?  It’s a reminder that, for John, facing the world most days takes the courage of a first responder running into a burning building.  But as you so clearly point out, his heroism is not the type to garner honor, gratitude, or even acceptance.

Yet I could speak of HIS acceptance of others, his sensitivity to those who are suffering, his spontaneous generosity.

We talk on the phone a couple times a week.   He lives about 90 minutes from me.  Yesterday we spoke for about 20 minutes.  With your words so fresh in my mind, I was somehow able to enjoy the conversation more deeply.  It was one of those moments you talk about that should be cherished for the simple pleasure that it is.  Your book did that for me.

I am saying a prayer for Ben.

I love hearing from you, dear readers. Thank you for your e-mails, your comments, and your advocacy - RK

NAMI Palm Beach Keynote - Support, Education, Acceptance

Keynote Speech for Annual Luncheon NAMI Palm Beach County, FL - a wonderful affiliate doing so much. This event raised thousands of dollars. Congrats!

The full version of this keynote is available on YouTube. Here, however, are just a few highlights:

What's the Difference When Your Child's Illness is in the Brain? "Sympathy"

60 minutes recently did a segment on the plight of families dealing with mental illness.  They interviewed many families and healthcare professionals in Connecticut, on how our system fails our Mentally Ill Youth in Crisis.

Deeds: “The system failed my son”

Virginia State Senator Creigh Deeds speaks out about how he was attacked by his son Gus, who suffered with schizophrenia. Virginia state senator Creigh Deeds suffered multiple stab wounds, and his 24-year-old son Gus died from an apparent self-inflicted gunshot in what police are considering an attempted murder-suicide.

Read more: Virginia State Senator Creigh Deeds' Son Evaluated and Released Before Stabbing | TIME.comhttp://nation.time.com/2013/11/19/before-senators-stabbing-a-shortage-of-psychiatric-beds/#ixzz2rzmupJD6

Connecticut families, in the continued aftermath of the Newtown shootings, still face the same issues of lack of beds, a revolving-door mental health system, and lack of support and help.

How I wish they had interviewed me, too - but the stories of Deeds and the other families are heartbreakingly similar. Sadly, the story in my book is not unique. Many suffer the same issues we do, every day, without support or even understanding.

In the "overtime" segment about stigma, a group of families shares the effect of stigma on their experience, and how a broken leg can bring casseroles, while a mental illness can bring warning letters from the lawyers of your neighbors.

What's the difference, according to one of the parents interviewed? "Sympathy."

Watch the clip here: http://www.cbsnews.com/videos/nowhere-to-go-mentally-ill-youth-in-crisis

On Glee, Odd Behavior, and - Schizophrenia?

Today's post comes courtesy of Ben Behind His Voices reader - and fellow Mom and blogger - Kari Larson. She wrote to me about a recent episode of Glee that I had also watched....and noticed Sue Sylvester's line of dialogue that compares character Blaine's new interest (talking with puppets) to that of someone "with schizophrenia and off meds"

I had noticed it, but it didn't really hit me as insulting because...well, hey, this is Glee, where they exaggerate pretty much everything and nothing is really off limits. Everyone acts erratically on Glee, and eventually they usually redeem themselves with some lesson following the farce.

But my son Ben doesn't watch Glee, so he had no reaction to the episode. Kari, however, wrote about a different experience. 

Hi Randye,

My daughter is 17 and has schizophrenia. She and I have watched Glee since the very beginning and overall it's been a show that embraces all types of people.

The most recent episodes have really upset us, and I'm wondering if some of the dialogue has come to your attention.

In one episode, the character of Marley is complaining about her ex-boyfriend's erratic behavior, that he's nice one minute and horrible the next, and says it's so "schizo."

This not only upset me because it was said in a negative way, but because it's not even correct, further perpetuating the myth that schizophrenia entails a split personality disorder. Untrue.

Another episode -- quite possibly the very next one -- has Sue Sylvester complaining that she didn't want school board members coming to the school and seeing "schizophrenia" students talking to imaginary puppets (one character had a hand puppet).

My daughter is heartbroken. I've sent Twitter comments to Ryan Murphy (Glee creator), Glee on Fox (official Glee Twitter account) and one of the executive producers. I don't expect to hear anything back, but I was wondering if any of this has come across your radar.

Thank you,
Kari Larson

In her blog(http://ninepillsaday.com/) , Kari adds: "I’m annoyed by two things. One: Schizophrenia DOES NOT MEAN split personalities. Two: Please, unless you, the writers of Glee, are headed toward a fantastic teaching moment, STOP USING THAT WORD. Stop using any form of that word. It’s insulting and, more often than not, used incorrectly."

What do you think? Glee "just joking" in the way it does for many issues, or stigma to to be protested? Does Sue Sylvester owe us an apology in a future episode? 

Call Me Crazy: You Are Not Alone in this Fight

Cast of Call Me Crazy

Lifetime is premiering a new film this Saturday at 8 PM:  

Call Me Crazy - and I can't wait to see it. I hope you will watch it too. 

Here is the description from Lifetime:

Through the five shorts named after each title character -- Lucy, Eddie, Allison, Grace and Maggie – powerful relationships built on hope and triumph raise a new understanding of what happens when a loved one struggles with mental illness. "Call Me Crazy: A Five Film" stars Academy Award® and Golden Globe® winners Jennifer Hudson, Melissa Leo and Octavia Spencer, Sarah Hyland, Sofia Vassilieva, Brittany Snow, Ernie Hudson, Jason Ritter, three-time Emmy Award®-winner Jean Smart, Lea Thompson, Oscar®-nominee Melanie Griffith and Chelsea Handler. Laura Dern, Bryce Dallas Howard, Bonnie Hunt, Ashley Judd and Sharon Maguire direct the anthology

NAMI (National Alliance of Mental Illness) is a partner in this broadcast. They have a launched a new stigma-busting initiative as part of the campaign, encouraging us all to share our stories as part of You Are Not Alone in  This Fight.

As I myself prepare to visit Ohio, New York, Louisiana, Michigan, Connecticut and Tennessee in the next few weeks to share our story for Mental Health Awareness Month, I am thrilled that the messages will reach way beyond personal travels and speeches to reach the wide viewing public. 

Here is the story I shared on the NAMI site:

My son has experienced what I later learned is a fairly typical gradual-onset  pattern toward full-blown, and heartbreaking, schizophrenia. After years of chaos, we have gone through the stages of family emotional acceptance (NAMI Family-to-Family saved us, which is why I now teach and train others to teach it) and have hope once again - but that hope is always guarded, affected by stigma, caution and some sense of loss.

One saving grace comes in realizing we are not alone. Speaking out about family experience brings mental illness into the light, where it belongs. My book Ben Behind His Voices: One Family's Journey from the Chaos of Schizophrenia to Hope was created in part to open eyes, ears and hearts to the family experience - and get schizophrenia out of the closet so we can work on paths toward mental and emotional recovery.

Bravo to Lifetime - I hope this movie can help us take another step away from stigma and toward empathy, acceptance and solutions.

Randye Kaye

Why Be Open About Schizophrenia?

Let's talk about the question I get quite often, via reader e-mails, keynote Q & A, or sometimes in the form of a critical tweet or two accusing me of "exploiting" my son Ben by being open about out family's experience with his illness: schizophrenia.

Am I  "Exploiting" my Son by Sharing Our Family Experience with Mental Illness?

No. Because Ben has graciously allowed me to speak.

First of all,  Ben has given me permission to share our story, as long as I changed his first name, relay any messages he asks me to, but respect his privacy by not using adult photos or expecting him to go on the speaking circuit with me.  These things, I have gladly done.

While not willing to talk about schizophrenia (or even, frankly, agree that the diagnosis is correct), Ben does realize that by speaking (from my point of view as parent), we may be helping other families to cope, understand, and sometimes  come back together.  So this is something we have done, together, each in our own way.

Why be open about mental illness?

To reduce stigma by increasing understanding.

This video, produced for the "Stand Up for Mental Health" campaign at Healthy Place, explains how "through stories, we get the human face of any condition" and "fight for:

• Respect

• Advocacy, and

• Equality"

Please share, and check out the other videos there, if you know someone who may need to feel less alone.

"Silver Linings Playbook" and Meds: Why the Secrecy?

At the end of the movie Silver Linings Playbook, when main character Pat Peoples is about to embark on the next, happier, more stable part of his life, I think he says something to his ex-wife about doing much better because he is focused, determined, physically fit - and (shhh!)taking his meds.

I think he says this because it's muttered almost under his breath - like it's a big secret we don't need the audience to know. As if he could do it all by himself without those nasty "drugs".

Really? Most of the one-out-of-four families who deal with mental illness will say that, while all those other elements of recovery are also essential (love, purpose, helping others, exercise, structure) , they could be entirely useless without the medications that stabilize the brain. Albeit not perfectly.

Does Pat Peoples Take Meds in Silver Linings Playbook ?

One quote from the book:

"...a woman who knows all my secrets, a woman who knows just how messed up my mind is, how many pills I'm on, and yet she allows me to hold her anyway",

suggests that Pat did, after initial resistance (which we see in the film), take his medications (which we might see in the film, but it's left unclear).

How nice it would be if people like my son Ben, diagnosed with schizophrenia, could see a movie hero who learns to accept that his meds do help, openly swallow them in the movie, and acknowledge that they have been part of his recovery.

Thank You, Pharma Companies and Reps

In the past year, I've had the honor several times of addressing pharmaceutical reps to tell them how much their work matters. These reps have, well, a bum rap. The face stigma of their own, portrayed as money-hungry, aggressive, pill-pushers. I speak to them in my keynote asauthor and Mom, tell our story, and remind them that that without new developments in medication - which it is their job to make available - my son might not be where he is in life.

One comment from a recent attendee:

"Your story inspired our entire sales force to continue working hard to 'bring value to life' for patients and caregivers alike.  I can’t begin to tell you how moved other members of the company from other sales divisions were to hear your story—it really helped put a face on schizophrenia and the many challenges and hurdles faced by all concerned."

So - if you research, develop, work for access, make available, or otherwise help to bring new meds to people like my son - thank you. Keep at it, because many of these meds could certainly be improved. But you give our family hope.

Even if my son still feels he needs to hide the fact that medication is part of his recovery. Even if he wants to think all the success is due to his own willpower and drive.

Recovery Needs Many Things - Internal and External

I am a big fan of drive, exercise, community, purpose, and a positive attitude. But, where mental illness is concerned, those qualities are usually not enough - not without meds, especially in people as young as my son.

Maybe, someday, there will be a popular movie that, loud and proud, gives medical treatment some credit too.

(Still - I loved the movie.)

The Mental Illness Family Experience:More Reader Stories

Letters, we get letters....and each time it reinforces the fact that mental illness affects the whole family - and that many - too many - families are left to guess at proper treatment and cope alone, especially if their family member is a "legal adult."

at a recent NAMI conference, I spoke about the truth that underneath every "patient" is a valued person: (this link goes to a short youtube excerpt) 

The Courage and Love of Families Dealing with Mental Illness

from a couple in Massachusetts:

I just finished reading your book and I say thank you. Our family has been on this journey for 12 years with our daughter. My wife and I read your story, cried, wiped tears and started again, shared in your triumphs and your challenges, laughed, recalled frantic moments, and on. We are members of NAMI, the F2F course many years ago saved us from bottoming out. We still fight every day for society to support this brain illness. I will hold onto your visions of Pride, Hope, and eternal love for your family. Thank you for speaking out and sharing your family with us.

from Laura in California:

First I would like to thank you for writing this awesome book. I have bought a few copies and am having extended family read it to help understand what our family is going thru. I am writing you because our son who is now almost 24 is diagnosed with schizophrenia...the real problem is at this age we want him to live independently from us. I am worried if anything were to happen to us he would be lost...Thank you so much again for writing this very important book.

from another Mom:

My husband and I both read your book Ben Behind his voices in four days we couldn't put it down you were telling my story with my son.I have both my sons mentally ill.
I have so many question I want to do what you did and help them get their lives back.
My older son unfortunately became violent I called the police one time ... he spent 4 months in jail/ Psychiatry, then he became homeless because he wouldn't go by the house rules and seeing a psychiatrist - let alone taking meds.
Both my sons had a breakdown in their sophomore year in college.
I would like to get my son off the street and get him help.Please help. I am also a member of NAMI.Thank you for the book you are a wonderful mother. 

As you can see, the story in Ben Behind His Voices is not unique. Families are to often left to cope alone, and I am thrilled that we are, at least, beginning to reach out to each other. I'm honored our book is a part of that, but without you, wonderful reader, the story will only go so far. Thank you for commenting, connecting, sharing, recommending. I can't help but think that, even though the "newtown shooter" has not yet been proven to have had a mental illness, the situation would have very very different if his family had had education and support.

The Tragic Newtown Shooting: Attention Must Be Paid

The horrors of 9/11 got us into wars overseas, and the memories continued to be used to justify our involvement there. Will the tragedy in Newtown get us into a war against easy access to assault weapons, underfunded mental health services,  stalled research, and lack of support?

Never Forget. Act to Prevent.

Details continue to unfold about what might have contributed to the horrific incidents Friday in my neighboring town of Newtown, CT.

It is beyond comprehension, yet we struggle to find some threads that might prevent a repeat of it.

Many will, I hope and pray, start to listen and make changes to some of the issues involved: smarter gun control, earlier detection of mental health problems, and more access to (and insistence upon) treatment for those problems.

As we struggle to "search for solutions" (this week's topic on Good Morning America), I hope we also get to find out what Adam Lanza's mother, Nancy, had struggled with.

• Did she try to get help for her son, only to be denied because he was "legally an adult, and there's nothing we can do now"?

• Was she left with no choice but to home-school her son after he dropped out of high school?

• Was she lost in a desperate attempt to hang on to some sort of bonding with a son she loved, but was losing to mental illness? (in her case, by teaching him about guns, taking to shooting ranges)

• Did she even know how to navigate the confusing world of mental health services, only to find no road map, no support, no funding?

• Did the stigma and blame of having a son with mental health problems keep them isolated and feeling there was no community left for them?

All of these things were true for us, at times. We had to, have to, fight every step of the way to get help, support, understanding. We are lucky. Ben's nature is sweet and peace-loving. Even his "grand delusions" when in psychosis were about writing the perfect poem that will create world peace. Also, we found help and community in NAMI, and Ben got support from an ICCD clubhouse, a residential facility, outpatient treatment, and newer medications that had not existed decades ago.

But the truth of the matter is that too many familes (like, I suspect, the Lanzas) simply give up before they can find help and support. They are left to "fix it themselves." Too many families are wiped out financially (as we were), emotionally (as we often were) and socially (as we sometimes were) before they find new paths to recovery. To help these families, I wrote our book, "Ben Behind His Voices", and advocate for the kind of help that might have prevented Adam Lanza from committing the most horrific crime the world could ever imagine.

I don't "know for sure" (Oprah phrase) that this tragedy could have been prevented. But, as the mother of someone who has a mental illness and has managed to find hope, I can't help but wonder - no, suspect - that the answer is yes. This did not have to happen.

We must all fight for understanding, research, funding of services, turning stigma into treatment, and supporting the families who are, too often, ill-prepared to fight mental illness alone.

Ben Behind His Voices: One Year Into a Book's Life

Hard to believe that the book launch party for Ben Behind His Voices was over a year ago now. The "new book smell" is gone. How are we doing?

Perhaps writing a book is like being pregnant: you're changing your life, making plans, working hard - yet have no real idea of what is coming into your life. Publication is like giving birth, perhaps - ah, here it is!, maybe the hard part is over.

Tend the Garden of Success Each Day

If that is true, then launching your book out in to the world is like raising a child. You have to work at it, every day - and, even so, there's much that is not truly in your control. You do your best, you try things from every angle, and then you hope that child will grow well, and touch the lives it/he/she is meant to touch.  Keeping book interest high is a garden authors must tend every day - and, like a garden, the seasons are ever-changing.

So - here we are, one year in - and the biggest discovery for me, I think, is that people are still discovering the book.  Unlike a flavor-of-the-month flashy new novel, the memoir seems to be more of a turtle than a hare - and that's just fine with me.

Sure, no Oprah appearance yet. Was booked onto Dr. Drew, but bumped by Hurricane Isaac updates. Ah, show biz.... Still working toward that "magical National appearance", perhaps - but there has quite a lot of press on the local, state, and Public Broadcast level. And, the book is young, and so far very well-received, both by reviewers and by readers who reach out to me.  So I don't think the chance is gone. At least, I hope not.

My publisher, who has had to move on to the new releases, seems to have noticed that book sales are growing instead of fading, as I got a note from my editor: "It’s great the book is still garnering interest.  Usually things really trail off after the first year."

Not if I can help it! Not when I'm still receiving letters from readers like this one:

Your book has been so very helpful to me. I am not done reading it yet, but so far this book mirrors my son's symptoms that I have been explaining away.

Thank you for sharing your experiences with me. Without ever knowing you, I feel very connected to you and your son. Thank you for helping me along my journey.

So, when my editor adds, "Great job!  I wish all my authors were as into it and on top of it as you.  I wish they would get the message that this stuff can help drive sales and recognition." - what does she mean?

Sure, book readings at Barnes and Noble are done - that's so last year. But there's a lot that still works. Mostly it's about finding new reasons to share the story - and there are so many things to fight for, to increase awareness of, in the world of mental health. So the work now is in topics, in the platform:

Keynote at Univ. Mount Union

• Increase respect

• Shift perspective from stigma to stability

• encourage therapeutic alliance for recovery

• see potential and strength

• care for the caregiver

• educate families so they can be allies,

• advocate for services from housing to supported employment and education,

• hear the many voices of people living with mental illness - and their families....

...and on. Hence the speaking topics I offer, and the gratitude for the places I've been invited to deliver them.

The book may be a year old, but the topic is timeless. Where to open the conversations? Everywhere.  This week it was a keynote called "From Stigma to Stability - Changing Minds about Mental Illness"  at a local Rotary Club. This weekend it's a presentation at the US Psych Congress in San Diego,. then a keynote atNAMI NYS conference.  Also getting involved in advocacy with the ICCD (Clubhouses for mentally ill members) to talk about how helping someone with mental illness helps the family too...Hospitals, Universities, Medical Schools, Nursing Programs...and then there is twitter, facebook, my blogs here and at HealthyPlace.com...

Remember - one in four families deals with mental illness in a loved one. That's a lot of folks who need to hear they are not alone.

Year two, here we go! and thanks for your support so far.  I hope you'll continue to share, tell others about this memoir and the work it is inspiring. There's so much still to be done.

And if you happen to know Oprah, well.....that'd be awesome too.

Living, and Sharing, with Mental Illness

Sharing Can Shape Our Lives

Before Ben Had a Job, He Took an Art Class and Made These Beads for Me

"For what we are, we are by sharing...and it is by sharing that we move toward the light." These words come from my temple's prayerbook for the Jewish New Year, and they never fail to re-ignite my sense of purpose each year.

Some seem to need this sense of community more than others, perhaps, but the fact is: we are all on this earth together. All of us. Healthy, or living with an illness or disability. Young, old, in between. Introverts and extroverts. Men, women. Different backgrounds, families, sexual orientations, strengths, challenges.

And what we are, what we become, the mark we leave on this world someday - it's a journey made meaningful by the sharing. And for that, we need each other.

How Stigma and Self-Stigma Can Lead to Isolation Instead

I recently participated in a wonderful panel called "Self-Stigma Solutions", alongside three people who live not only with mental illness but also with the stigma that can come along for the ride - both external and internal. Each person shared how they were either told, or told themselves:

• "your life is over"

• "you'll never amount to anything now"

• "you'll never have friends"

• "you may as well just give up"

Well - these people did not give up. They were down, but came back up. They not only refused to believe the stigma, they learned to change the messages they were giving themselves.  Yes, even with mental illness and all the stigma that comes with it, sharing is possible. One of my fellow panelists is now a lawyer, one a therapist, one a counselor - and all share their stories to help others living with mental illness, and their families. Thank you.

As for Ben, he spent years feeling unemployable - which wasn't easy. How do you answer when people say, "and what do you do?", when it's all you can do to stay out of the hospital? Slowly, though, he began to build upon the sharing he was doing: chores at his group home, a commitment to "Anonymous" meetings, volunteer work, helping us with household chores when visiting. He needed to share, to feel needed. And, eventually, he not only returned to college- he also has been employed part-time for almost 18 months. Ben has a bigger playing field, and a clearer structure, for sharing - and it has added to his recovery in so many ways.

Steps Away from Self-Stigma, and Toward Sharing

Three Steps That Can Help Erase the Negative Messages:
1 - Consider the Source of Negative Messages (they may be ignorant of the facts)
2 - Hang On to the Positives (past success, others who believe in you)
3 - Replacement Messages (e.g. eliminate the word "just" or "only" when you describe what you do)

Yes, this takes patience. Yes, it takes rewording your doubts until they look like problems to be solved instead of obstacles that prevent.  Yes, it takes work, and time. But each of them now share their lives, as does my son Ben.

Share Your Light

However we find community - a group home, a clubhouse, volunteer work, a meeting, your family - we each have something to share. And, by sharing, we let our own lights shine as we move toward the greater light we all create together.

See the person, not the symptoms.
See possibility and promise. It's there, with treatment, respect, patience, community, and hope.

Depression out of the Closet: The Boss too

Add Bruce Springsteen to the list of celebrities willing to talk about their mental issues.

Springsteen talks about his lifelong battles with depression in a 16,000-word New Yorker profile hitting the stands this week.

Every time someone in the public eye is willing to talk about mental illness, the door opens to acceptance just a bit more, and stigma is dealt a blow.

Ben and I are trying to do the same thing with our  book. This week I was thrilled to present "Listen Up! Hearing the Family’s Perspective on Illness " as Interdisciplinary Grand Rounds at Bridgeport Hospital, and honored to receive this feedback:

"I truly appreciated your candor, your humor, and your heart in speaking on this topic. I'd like to think I pride myself on empathy and compassion with all my patients, but I know after hearing you speak, I will double my efforts, all around, no matter the condition.  Thanks again for a really worth while and inspiring talk."

To touch another person like that - well, that's the reason I wrote the book and speak out. Thank you.

Yes, right now it is mostly my crusade as Ben's Mom - but someday I hope that Ben will speak out too. I see signs of acceptance in him, but I know he is not ready to say, in public, that he has schizophrenia. That's okay. I will take what we've got, and I know what it takes. Patience. Understanding. Love. And some luck too.

Meanwhile - Thanks, Boss, for your courage and honesty.  You've kicked the door open another inch.

Schizophrenia and "Perception": Will it be Accurate?

Tonight TNT unveils a new series called “Perception” , in which Eric McCormack plays a brilliant neuroscientist with a full-blown case of schizophrenia.

According to the NY Times, here is the premise:

Colorful characters that only Pierce can see pop up to help him solve murder cases he consults on for his spunky F.B.I. buddy, played by Rachael Leigh Cook. These apparitions badger Pierce with what appear to be non sequiturs and useless information until the last 10 minutes of an episode, when the light bulb goes on, and the murderer is identified.

"Perception" and Mental Illness Stigma

Eric McCormack plays a neuroscientist in “Perception” on TNT. - JanThijs/TNT

The review goes on to say that this is "TV-Fantasy schizophrenia" - so what does that mean? The hallucinations are useful? Cute? Just a manageable feature of a slightly-eccentric personality?

Will the fictional Daniel Pierce take meds? Will he have had any hospitalizations in his past? Does his family stick with him? Does he have friends? Is he stigmatized at all by his illness?

Will this show help spread misconceptions about schizophrenia as a cute illness, handy for solving crimes, rather than an acute illness?

We will have to wait and see. I'm taping it tonight. I've suggested to Ben that he watch it too, but I can see that the idea made him uncomfortable. So that, too, will have to wait.

Book Tour Continues: Trains, Planes, Automobiles

Catching a train to Boston today, then a drive to Marlborough, Massachusetts to participate in the Parent / Professional Advocacy League (PPAL) 2nd Annual Conference & Celebration as keynote speaker, then a car to Logan Intl airport and a plane to Los Angeles for a US Psych Congress regional event. Presenting about partnering for best recovery outcomes in mental illness by sharing our story as told in the book - and in the year since its publication.

After a book-signing, it's back on the plane home to Ben and the rest of the family. After one day together, I drive back to the Boston area to speak with pharmaceutical reps about how more medication options can keep hope alive. Then home, then back to the airport Wednesday - this time to Seattle, to present with Susan Inman, author of After Her Brain Broke, at the NAMI National Convention.

So many are working so hard to increase understanding, reduce stigma, foster respect, advocate for the right to mental illness treatment and better research in the field.  I am so grateful for the opportunities to be one of them. And grateful that the rest of my family is here for Ben, as I travel to hopefully inspire others to become part of recovery in any way they can.

Mental Health Links of Hope and Understanding

There are so many working to increase awareness, reduce stigma,  advocate for proper treatment and services for those with mental illness - and their families. Sharing stories, spreading the word, creating events, producing documentaries, writing letters, speaking to legislators - we are everywhere.

Here are some terrific links I hope you will check out and support - and that they might be of some inspiration to you as well.

Check out this trailer for a documentary-in-progress called Voices. ("A documentary about people who live in the shadows of society") Gary Tsai, a resident psychiatrist in the Bay area, is one of its producers.

Why this film? (still in post-production, not yet released, but there is lots to see on its website)

"Some have been living on the streets for decades, others are now housed, but all are connected by their struggles, and successes, with mental illness. By shining a light on their experiences, we aspire to give them a voice and to humanize their experiences so that they are defined not by their disability or homelessness, but by their unique and compelling stories."

Here is another documentary, which has its first hometown screening tonight in Chapel Hill, NC.

view the trailer here

According to producer KevinCullen, “A Moment of Clarity” is an intimate documentary providing true insight into the world of bipolar disorder told through the life and art of emerging painter Isti Kaldor...Hospitalized during a manic period at UNC Hospital, Isti started to paint. Never having painted prior to his manic break, something in his mind was awoken, the results of which were evident in the dynamic expression of his artwork...(and Isti)has arrived at an unforeseen destination. A place where he can finally do what he dreamed of years ago. Touch peoples lives."

And here is a story of love and friendship:"

Schizophrenia Makes Finding Love Difficult, But Not Impossible"

Another wonderful source of "Links of Hope" come from the readers of Ben Behind His Voices. I am so grateful to you for reaching out to share your stories with me, comment on the book, and continue to spread the messages of understanding and possibility.

One such call led to a chance for me to see a newly-recovered side of Ben's empathy and progress. I blogged about it at healthyplace.com

Together we can truly make this particular change, one story (and, hopefully, solution) at a time.

Thank you for keeping the dialogue going.

Stop Stigma Now!: It May Save a Life

Last night I had the pleasure of being the keynote speaker for the Kennedy Center Inc Annual meeting. The theme was inspiring:

Create Hope, Celebrate Potential.

The Kennedy Center staff does so much to do just that, from educational programs to support services like job coaching, to residential programs and more, helping families when hopes and dreams have to be adjusted due to a disability diagnosis - in utero, at birth, because of an accident, or (as in our case) as a child develops.

Decorated books! for the centerpieces

We cry our tears; then, if we're lucky and well-guided, we wipe our eyes, pick up the pieces, educate ourselves, find a new community, get some support and new knowledge, and learn to understand our "new normal."  Then we adjust. And accept. And, eventually, appreciate the joys in this "new normal."

None of this happens overnight. It takes time (and the "SEARCH" elements I talk about - support, education, acceptance, resilience, communication, and hope/humor) to get to that new place.

And it takes time and patience.

But none of this - none of it - can happen without first addressing the problem of stigma. Especially where mental illness is concerned - because we can't always bring ourselves to see it, visually or emotionally.

Kenton Robinson of the Eastern Regional Mental Health Board wrote a beautiful, heartfelt piece about his experience with family stigma that almost had tragic results for one of his former 7th grade students:

he says:

Depression, bipolar disorder and schizophrenia are illnesses, just as diabetes or heart disease are illnesses, but they are still viewed by many as the victims' fault. That stigma makes people ashamed and afraid, and it prevents many from getting the treatment they need.

I responded:

Shame was part of our initial reaction until we learned better, through NAMI (I became a family-to-family educator and trainer) and through hearing stories of others. I wrote our book hoping it might save a family as ours was saved - and, possibly, save a life.

Thank you for a wonderful article!

Book Reviews from the Field: Psychologist, Psych Nurses

Thanks to Psych Central for adding Ben Behind His Voices to the excellent titles in their Mental Health Library. I'm proud to be listed here!

Readers who also happen to be healthcare providers (psychiatrists, nurses, psychologists, social workers, etc.) give extra hope that the messages in our story (greater empathy, the human face of mental illness, reduction of stigma, need for early detection, more integrated treatment options, new research, increased services, open communication and teamwork in recovery) will continue to branch out to others. Thank you!

From Nicholette Leanza, M.Ed, PCC-S - review on Psych Central

"Ben Behind His Voices is an inspirational story about a family’s experience with schizophrenia... This book is a good resource for individuals with schizophrenia and their families. It also serves as a strong reminder to mental health professionals to treat individuals affected with the illness with dignity and compassion...

She carries the reader along and we, in turn, can feel her pain to find the answers to her son’s issues and problems. She begins some of her chapters with excerpts from Ben’s writings, which provide the reader some insight into his perspective on his struggles:

I am most of my voices

Many different selvesI don’t need to give in to what I fear

Just give in to the fact that I’m afraid.

~ Ben, c. 2001"

Here, Psychiatric Nurse Charmaine Grace shares her perspective on her blogpost "I Love My Job"

"This book is a must-read for anyone working in the mental health field, a family member of someone suffering from a mental illness, or any person who is diagnosed. One very important lesson I learned from this book is that there is so much more to that person behind the hospital room door than a simple diagnosis.

Now, whenever I see a patient, I try to recall this memoir and think about the process of how this person got into a crisis, how afraid he or she may have been, and how afraid his or her family may have been. When I see a family member, I always try to remember to ask, “How are you feeling?” to let him or her know that this is not an easy process, and that his or her health (physical and psychological) is very important to me."

Thanks to you both for reading the book, sharing your thoughts, and for your work in this field.

Diagnosis, Schizophrenia: What Came Next?

Interview on Conn Jackson' show, Get Connected-- he on windy Manhattan (California) Beach, me in a nice warm studio in Manhattan (Big Apple). He asked some great questions, and allowed me to highlight the importance of therapeutic alliance, NAMI, early detection, reduction of stigma, support and education for families, and the importance of love and hope.

Thanks, Conn! Here's what he had to say about the interview on YouTube:

"Watch as Randye Kaye, author, tells us about her son's struggle with schizophrenia and how she helped him though it. Why is Randye's secret advice? Watch and find out!"

Open Hearts and Mental Illness: View from both sides

There is so much potential, creativity, intelligence, and a wealth of new perspectives to be gained by being open to those affected by mental illness. One wonderful example is the aptly named Open Hearts Gallery in South Carolina.

Their mission?

One Open Hearts Work

THE OPEN HEARTS GALLERY IS A DYNAMIC GALLERY FEATURING THE TALENTED ARTWORK OF PEOPLE WHO LIVE WITH OR HAVE RECOVERED FROM MENTAL ILLNESS.  ART IS A POWERFUL REPRESENTATION OF THE PERSON WITHIN - HIS OR HER PAIN, RECOVERY, AND TRIUMPH.  THE GALLERY SERVES AS A BRIDGE TO COMBAT STIGMA AND AS A REMINDER OF HOW RESILIENT AND SIMILAR WE ALL ARE.

Check it out. You can also order prints by going to their "contact" page.

Can we open our hearts to those with mental illness? Of course, as the mother of a wonderful young man who also has schizophrenia, I am going to say yes - still, as you know if you have read Ben Behind His Voices, there were times when I felt I had to harden that heart in order to survive emotionally. The journey to return to an open heart toward Ben was not without challenges; my book pays homage to the obstacles as well as to the results of the lessons of love, respect, and possibility that we eventually learned.

But, still - there is always another view. I recently has a conversation with someone whose heart was shaped by her own experience as parenting Ben has shaped mine. In his case, he had been stalked by someone whose mental illness was allowed to go untreated. Untreated! That can be the difference between love and fear, between open hearts and a mind forever closed. And I can't say I "blame" him. How could I?  (for more information about "Eliminating Barriers to the Treatment of Mental Illness", see the excellent website Treatment Advocacy Center.)

So, while most react to my story with gratitude, this person was cold to the idea of someone with schizophrenia being vulnerable, lovable, capable, and worthy of respect. I hope, perhaps, that hearing our story might loosen his heart just a bit. Stories, and art, can help do that.